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Monday, 02 November 2009

I'm burning up inside. It's a fire that cuts like a blade. My heart burns.

Wonder when it'll be done with? Let it boil for a little longer, we'll see in a while.

When you act tasteless, it's my favorite flavor.

Doomed if only. Lost when lonely.

The higher you fly, the farther you escape from this world.

Black is white only when grey's off on holiday.

Sunday, 01 November 2009

I sold my soul to God for half-price.

Thursday, 29 October 2009

Brotherhood Brothel

It hurts and it burns and I am not afraid to say
what I think about this shitfaced system
of broken-up glass wielding cabarets.
With those in command how could we
not drink to our demise?
Cause winters never whiter, and their thighs
wrapped tighter and tighter like
a noose of velvet, but a noose nonetheless.
We're coaxed and conned, but we like it.
So let those boys enjoy their
time, cause it's all they have.
Gambling gruesome, promiscuous prude
They should know at least
they're in the nude.

Sunday, 25 October 2009

On love: Can one love the person but not their actions? (I'm red)

l (9:03:38 PM): do you think it's possible to hate someone's actions while still loving them unconditionally?
L (9:04:11 PM): Yes.
l (9:05:13 PM): so when, say, a christian activist says that they hate homosexuality but love homosexuals, that is plausible and valid?
L (9:06:11 PM): well i don't think that's the same comparison
L (9:06:19 PM): because right now you're saying that homosexuality is an action.
l (9:06:31 PM): okay, then homosexual actions
l (9:07:05 PM): a christian activist says that they hate homosexual actions but love homosexuals, that is plausible and valid?
L (9:07:18 PM): hmmm
L (9:08:54 PM): well...
L (9:08:59 PM): let me back track
L (9:09:19 PM): and disagree then.
L (9:09:28 PM): since loving someone unconditionally
L (9:09:29 PM): ...
L (9:09:40 PM): hmmm.
L (9:10:02 PM): actually I think it could be plausible and valid.
l (9:11:44 PM): and what if a nazi were to say they hate when jews practice their jewish traditions, but would love the jews even more as long as they don't "act" jewish or tone their jewishness down?
L (9:12:22 PM): That depends on the Nazi.
L (9:12:25 PM): lol
L (9:12:43 PM): but then again, I don't think it's fair to claim for anyone that they will love "all" of any one thing.
L (9:12:58 PM): Isn't that impossible, in itself and a fallacy?
l (9:14:01 PM): not love in the sense of "awww, i love this flavor of soda" but more so love in the sense of "communion, bonding, and acceptance"
l (9:14:21 PM): less preference and more acceptance
L (9:14:39 PM): same thing.
L (9:14:49 PM): whatever love you speak of
l (9:15:46 PM): but then your point would contradict you saying that a person could not love another's actions, but love them
L (9:16:03 PM): no no
L (9:16:06 PM): my point was
L (9:16:28 PM): that claiming that you could love "all" of something is impossible
l (9:17:45 PM): then is it possible for one to accept all of something out of love?
L (9:18:24 PM): mmm
L (9:18:26 PM): give me an example.
L (9:18:36 PM): I'm not sure if I'm understanding your meaning properly.
l (9:19:35 PM): i can go back to my original then
l (9:20:17 PM): take a christian activist, is it plausible for them to say they hate homosexuality, but because they love the person, they will accept it?
L (9:20:40 PM): yes
l (9:21:06 PM): then what of a drug addict? can one love someone enough to accept their addiction?
L (9:22:17 PM): hmmmmmmm.
L (9:22:30 PM): Well, in this case
L (9:22:36 PM): the actions are much more complicated.
L (9:22:41 PM): And self-desctructive
l (9:23:02 PM): christians believe homosexuality is self-destructive just as most would believe drug addictions to be
L (9:23:12 PM): Ah
L (9:23:14 PM): Good point.
L (9:23:35 PM): i will still say yes then.
l (9:24:19 PM): then it is possible to love someone but hate their actions?
l (9:25:20 PM): possible to separate the person from the personal character?
L (9:25:37 PM): mm yes.
L (9:25:59 PM): but I feel like I need to qualify
L (9:26:07 PM): that as long as you say
L (9:26:19 PM): wait.
L (9:26:22 PM): by personal character
L (9:26:30 PM): do you mean their entire character as a whole?
L (9:26:35 PM): Because I find that a somewhat strange.
l (9:26:38 PM): their actions
L (9:26:44 PM): okay.
L (9:26:46 PM): then yes.
L (9:26:49 PM): still yes.
L (9:27:06 PM): It is not very likely to happen.
L (9:27:13 PM): But I do believe it is capable of occuring.
l (9:27:20 PM): then that is to say that it is possible to overlook even the greatest atrocity because you love someone
L (9:27:29 PM): Yes.
l (9:27:57 PM): okay, then let's bring this love out of personal and into a grander idea
l (9:28:25 PM): is it possible to love a group of people but be completely digusted and hate their actions (and in that, the beliefs meriting their actions)?
L (9:29:04 PM): I don't see how that differs from loving a individual.
L (9:29:09 PM): so i will again, say yes.
L (9:29:12 PM): it's possible.
l (9:30:45 PM): so then what if your father said to you that he hated everything you do and believe, but still loved you? would that still be real love?
L (9:32:02 PM): It would be amazing that he still loved me.
l (9:32:52 PM): okay if i take that as a yes, then back to my example of homosexuality
l (9:33:19 PM): is it then morally correct for christians to try to "reverse" homosexuality out of love?
L (9:33:59 PM): hmmm.
L (9:34:16 PM): No.
l (9:34:23 PM): how so?
L (9:34:52 PM): Love, as strong as it can prove to be is not always 'moral.'
l (9:35:52 PM): so the same goes for one trying to break someone out of a drug habit out of love? it is not moral?
L (9:39:20 PM): hmm.
L (9:52:23 PM): it's moral.
L (9:52:27 PM): in both cases.
l (9:53:08 PM): so, the nazis, loving humanity and thinking killing all the jews would help it, was moral as well?
L (9:53:21 PM): in their point of view, yes it was.
l (9:53:52 PM): so if morality is relative, then is love not also?
L (9:54:12 PM): it is.
l (9:54:16 PM): would it then be true to say that it, in some cases, is impossible to love someone based on their actions?
L (9:54:25 PM): of course.
l (9:58:09 PM): so then if situations determine whether or not someone loves another, then isn't it true that actions determine situations, and thus, whether or not someone is able to love another?
l (9:59:26 PM): in turn meaning, it is wrong to say (when love is considered relative) that it is possible to love someone but not their actions when it is their actions that determine the situation?
l (10:00:25 PM): if love is relative
l (10:00:38 PM): and relativity is based on situation
l (10:00:43 PM): and our actions cause situations
L (10:01:03 PM): okay..
L (10:01:07 PM): don't make leaps and bounds
L (10:01:10 PM): from some to all.
L (10:01:31 PM): l (9:53:58 PM): would it then be true to say that it, in some cases, is impossible to love someone based on their actions?
L (10:01:35 PM): I agreed with that.
L (10:01:45 PM): l (9:57:51 PM): so then if situations determine whether or not someone loves another, then isn't it true that actions determine situations, and thus, whether or not someone is able to love another?
L (10:02:10 PM): I never agreed with how a situation determines whether or not someone loves another.
l (10:02:52 PM): but situation and relativity are synonymous
l (10:03:02 PM): you agreed love is relative
l (10:03:22 PM): circumstantial would work too
L (10:03:54 PM): I agreed for the opposite, that love is possible despite the circumstance though
L (10:03:55 PM): o.O
L (10:04:01 PM): depsite the actions.
L (10:04:04 PM): same diff.
l (10:05:25 PM): but do are actions not determine our circumstance?
l (10:05:59 PM): *** but don't our actions determine our circumstance?**
L (10:06:14 PM): yeah.
L (10:06:22 PM): that doesn't go against what I argued for still.
L (10:06:23 PM): lol
L (10:08:12 PM): ?
l (10:09:22 PM): okay, but isn't it circumstance that determines whether love can form or not?
l (10:12:09 PM): if actions determine circumstance and circumstances determines if love can form, then doesn't that mean that love is determined by the actions of a person?
L (10:12:20 PM): ._.
L (10:13:24 PM): Yes then.
l (10:14:28 PM): so then if actions determine love, then my original statement (do you think it's possible to hate someone's actions while still loving them unconditionally?) was impossible and false
L (10:14:49 PM): yes.
L (10:15:01 PM): if actions determine love
L (10:15:02 PM): then yes.
L (10:15:05 PM): it is impossible.
l (10:15:17 PM): well do you think they do?
l (10:15:21 PM): loooool!!
L (10:15:38 PM): -_-
L (10:15:41 PM): i kill you.
l (10:15:53 PM): hahaa
l (10:16:02 PM): i just wanted to try some Socratic questioning
L (10:16:09 PM): @_@
L (10:16:18 PM): it is strange having such a deep converstaion on one hand
L (10:16:24 PM): and such a stupid casual one on the other
L (10:16:27 PM): @_@
L (10:17:35 PM): love does spring from actions, but it does not conclude that love is dependent on actions to continue existing.
l (10:18:58 PM): so then, creating love and sustaining love require two different things?
L (10:19:28 PM): yes
L (10:19:36 PM): it also greatly depends on the source
L (10:19:41 PM): the person who is "loving"
l (10:21:07 PM): well, then is it possible to lose love?
L (10:21:16 PM): uhh
L (10:21:48 PM): by losing love, do you mean to have it lost without the source's knowledge?
L (10:21:48 PM): o.O
L (10:21:52 PM): or what do you mean?
l (10:22:13 PM): i mean, just as we may fall into love, is it not possible to fall out of love?
L (10:23:39 PM): yes...
l (10:24:08 PM): then once love is lost, is it not true to say that it must be recreated in order to be sustained?
L (10:25:15 PM): uh
L (10:25:32 PM): are talking about love directing toward the same object/person/subject?
l (10:25:37 PM): yes
L (10:25:45 PM): hmmmmm.
L (10:25:48 PM): recreated...
L (10:25:52 PM): recreated.
L (10:26:40 PM): rediscovered...
L (10:27:20 PM): Once you grow distant from a friend, does that friendship vanish?
L (10:27:38 PM): And once you somehow regain that friendship does ithave to be recreated from anew?
L (10:27:47 PM): or are you rediscovering a new friendship?
L (10:28:35 PM): you said once, that the friendship would merely be on "pause"
L (10:28:42 PM): which implies that the friendship still very much exists.
L (10:28:49 PM): and is just rediscovered, but not recreated.
l (10:29:54 PM): well let's approach this logically
l (10:30:02 PM): do you believe love can be lost?
L (10:30:04 PM): ok.
L (10:30:06 PM): it depends
L (10:30:10 PM): on how it was lost perhaps.
L (10:30:19 PM): it can fade away
l (10:30:22 PM): so still love is relative
L (10:30:23 PM): it can be ripped away
L (10:30:40 PM): um...well let's stay away from the definition of love for now
L (10:31:03 PM): because right now the topic is whether or not it can be truly lost
l (10:31:42 PM): but relativity is a quality of love is it not? in creation, sustaining, and rediscovering
l (10:31:56 PM): if so, then love is relative to circumstance, completely
l (10:34:00 PM): and, from what we inferred earlier, relativity is based on circumstance, and since circumstance is created by action, and thus love is based on those actions, then overall, it should seem that love is completely based on action, in creation, sustaining, and rediscovering
L (10:34:36 PM): then whether or not love can be truly lost or not
L (10:34:38 PM): is also relative.
L (10:34:43 PM): and depending on the circumstance.
l (10:34:58 PM): yes i suppose so
l (10:35:07 PM): then in short, logically
l (10:35:33 PM): love is determined by actions of a person/people, rather than the persons/people themselves
l (10:36:08 PM): thus an example of a person claiming they love another, but hate their actions is impossible and incorrect
L (10:36:20 PM): by this definition of love, yes.
l (10:36:28 PM): ah okay
l (10:36:36 PM): i have to do homework now
l (10:36:37 PM): ttyl
l (10:36:43 PM): looool!!
Just Look Underneath

We’ve been dancing all night
and its starting to ache
missteps are mistakes
misread and misplaced.
It hurts to be cut,
just look underneath
more than just guts
you take what you keep.
Love lost, grieving gone,
Is this a heartbeat or ticking bomb?

Thursday, 22 October 2009

AS(s)

THIS is what happens when people are idiots. I grow tired of these fools who decide they are good enough to be leaders of an institution, yet are "neutral" enough not to vote on whether something is good or bad. The day politics means for society to act both rationally and morally in unison is the day I die [of happiness]. GAH!!

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

Celebrating 19 Years of Henry.

It was my birthday yesterday. Overall, a nice birthday. There were a few slight disappointments, but, ah well, that is to be expected. Anyways, I'm happy and content with how things turned out.

Birthdays are funny days. They're very arrogant days I've come to realize. It's almost as if you're "Celebrating ___ years of ME!!" Hahaha. How fun huh?

Saturday, 03 October 2009

Unless The Future Tells me So

I've lived my life without regret
but the past just keeps on haunting
I cannot seem to forget
the moments I keep wanting.
From this I know
that everything, I try to do is not worth the time
unless the future tells me so
unless my future lets me let go.
Allow us to examine the pains of academia. Me. Case in point.

Saturday, 19 September 2009

In The Snow

WOW!! I never ceased to be amazed by Garbage and Shirley Manson. Her new single demo is to die for. OMG, I love it. GAHH!!!!
Why We Question.

It is the singular soul which strives to achieve a definition in this world. For meaning innate derives no satisfaction to the masses collective, they are content and live accordingly. The collective functions as a machine needing only necessity whereas it is the sole individual which seeks the deeper philosophies.

The sole shall query, what is The Meaning? Is there even a Meaning? Extremities must be spoken for, the middle ground cannot provide sustenance for the human heart, the soul, for it is the soul which seeks these answers, not the intellect. Contrary to one's beliefs, the soul succinctly drives the mind in pursuit. And through perhaps one of the only universal truths, when the heart and mind are at conflict, the world does not stop to accommodate.

Laws remain constant. Yet the heart is discontent, ironically, also seeking consistency in truth. Perhaps it is not truly truth one seeks, rather truth desired, a reflected truth. But this lie, a farce, cannot satiate the mind and leaves it an empty husk of reasoning. The mind, unlike the heart, seeks fact over fiction and, in that, shall combat the inner workings of the human soul not for desired deeper meanings, rather truths denied. Fighting and resisting, the two work side by side, attempting to decode life's mysteries, often only accepting answers the other would find unacceptable.

Friday, 11 September 2009

And who are we but people living?

Who were they those many dead?

Shall we suffer, this life of ours.

We are gone.

Wednesday, 09 September 2009

Bloody Amazing Poet.

"Who would have guessed it possible that waiting is sustainable—a place with its own harvests. Or that in time's fullness the diamonds of patience couldn't be distinguished from the genuine in brilliance or hardness." - Kay Ryan
Super Delicious

I'm doing something a little bit less organic and more modern. Ah, I should be sleeping but creativity calls! XD

Super Delicious

Molten passion spilling forth,
it bleeds and cuts, sluts and whores,
and open doors cause heart attacks
when stage left screens are gruesome black.
Sacrosanct is the new sheik.
God's my personal voyeur peep.
Don't keep me up, don't knock me down,
keep up the pace, don't turn around.
My rule of thumb is world renowned,
Fun is never safe or sound
unless in the dirt and on the ground.

Grey's this century's favorite color
it's emblem, an electric dollar.
We try to smile, but tears give way,
the kiddie pool reeks of decay.
This poison tastes like stage four sleep,
I hear the world's up for keeps
with sullen succor and splendor sweet,
my mouth is watering for more to eat.
Violent veins, machine malicious,
I've always been craving, it's super delicious.

Tuesday, 08 September 2009

Presley

God, Elvis is still the king.

Saturday, 05 September 2009

Kate Earl, AMAZING

So I have a new music obsession. She's taken my playlists by storm, hah. Kate Earl's going to be HUGE I tell ya. Muahahaha, I said it first!! Check her out, this is "All I want" (which is my personal favorite, the lyrics are AMAZING) and "Melody" (a grrrreat song, more for mainstream). Her whole album is filled to the brim with amazing music. Soooooo good!! I have a lot of new music obsessions, although Kate Earl is one of the most postworthy.

Monday, 31 August 2009

Le Bien Qui Fait Mal

It's been a long time since I posted a music video. Okay, so right now I've become crazy obsessed with the upcoming French musical Mozart: L'Opera Rock. Oh how I wish I could go see it premier. Rock operas are a lost art. There are only a handful and not a lot of media attention goes to them. Anyways, so the soundtrack of the musical has been released early. Everything's so good!! It's not catchy music necessarily, but one can definitely tell the high musical quality in the soundtrack. It's thoroughly amazing. French is a wonderful language. Ahh taking all those years of French have finally paid off, muahaha. Here's my favorite of the soundtrack... "Le Bien Qui Fait Mal" (The Good who do Bad)!!
Loathe the pain inside, the ache that drives my dreams and shakes my soul. My heart knows no rest if it does not rest with you. It hurts me to have so much love and not be able to share it. Wonderful and exquisite, terrible and painful, love means becoming willing to share one's soul without reservation to another.

Wednesday, 26 August 2009

Return to The River

For what does this glowing horizon mean for me but a line that separates imagination and reality? I'm not one to be easily fooled. Life isn't ever defined by moments of instance. Rather, usually, if not always, life's meaning is found to be a collective, to which each of us finds over time. But just as time keeps its toll on life itself, there isn't anything in this world that is eternal. Meanings change and moments pass. I've longed for this horizon for far too long though. Does that imply it contains meaning? My mind bends and distorts what is real and what is desired. I remember a wasteland of concrete mess. Yet now I see only fluorescent wonder, and despite all of its scars and pain, I accept it and love it for what it is. Could this be home? Home is always beautiful if it is truly home. I suppose I can't keep it from bubbling inside of me. I miss it. And let the insanity ensue.

Sunday, 09 August 2009

Block, Block, BLOCK

I've hit a block. A big block. I need some demolition. I need some reconstruction. Or perhaps I really just need some instruction. Okay, so I wrote this little diddly in like ten minutes. Can ya guess what it's about? LOL!! It's late and I just got done reading something very suggestive, hah. What's a guy to do? XD Okay then, off to bed now, hopefully I'll start blogging more often and regularly again. Life is hard when you don't even know how to live it properly, haha.

Earth and Sky

For what gracious luck, brings me here
so I may drink, the night's lone fear
of daylight's waking, and moments longing
of losing you, the heavens calling.
And once again, as morning comes
oh what we share, shall curse the sun.
Moments linger, and moments go
the gods must be jealous, for this I know
why else would we, have to part
for lonely days, and yearning hearts
mean nothing when, we reunite
and burn the hours, of midnight's light.
They must wish for, what we hold
unconditionally, each other's souls.
Days and nights, we love and lie
intertwined, as earth and sky.